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4.5.08 - 7:09 PM
"Religious" Affiliation
While I was building this blog space, me, mom, and my brother got into a minor religious debate. basically, mom thinks that I downplay certain religious attributes, like the impact of demons and things like that. Deep down, that really ticked me off.
There are certain things that I view as a foundation of anything "spiritual".
Anything is possible.Because we don't know everything, anything is possible. I don't know what the dude down the street is doing, heck I don't even know who the dude down the street is or how he will influence or affect me. I don't know the shortest route from here to planet x. I don't know who I will marry. I don't know IF I will marry. There is an infinite amount of things that I don't know, meaning there is an infinite amount of things that could and couldn't be; therefore there is no reason to stress over what can/will happen because anything can happen in any method. It is like asking me how to get to school. There are MANY different ways to get to my highschool. Some are more practical or expected than the others, but it is still possible to get there in that method.
People are stupid.Harsh I know, but we know and understand sooooooo little. More specifically, compared to the infinite amount of knowledge that we do not know, we are dumber that dirt. Because we are dumber than dirt, we don't know what we are doing. It is like making a manga about frog bird creatures, thinking that it is fake/fiction/imaginary, but we don't know that there is actually a frog/bird creature either on our planet or on another. Because we don't know so much, I expect some things that are "imaginary" to have some sort of truth to them.
Everything Has Potential to do Anything.This is similar to the 1st, but I am refering to what is inside. The core being inside. There is the physical, and then there is the physical. In psycology, you learn that when you are a baby, you are born with an empty slate, which btw, I disagree with. I believe that every child is born with pure potential. It is like having the purest blue. With this color blue, if you add white, you get sky blue. By adding yellow, you get green. By adding red, you get purple. Similarily the baby, whenever and as it grows, can do anything within its parameters. (Parameters means boundaries. No matter how much yellow you add to blue, the yellow will never be pure.) I can do anything the heck I want, but some things will be more difficult to do than others because it is approaching my limits. For example: I paint, I am a painter, an artist. I am also someone who does not like violence. Lets say you put me in a battle royal. I would initially do poorly. As I become accustomed to fighting, I can somewhat overlook my passiveness. Still, there WILL come a time when I let my guard down b/c of my passiveness. I am passive, but I have the potential to kick ass.
That which is done before death, STAYS there.In other words, doing all the good things in the world will not make one righteous. Goodness, benevolence, wickedness, is all innate. This also goes with the one above. A good person can have an evil streak in him. An evil person can have a good streak in him. Yin and Yang. Anyway, the point is, when you die, your body, your
shell stays on earth. The things that your shell has done stays with the shell. Good DEEDS does not matter. Good INTENTIONS does matter. Both go to different places in the end. Deeds stay on earth. Intentions go with your spirit to god.
HOWEVER, things that occur in the physical can affect the spirit. Remember how I said that no matter how much yellow you add to blue, it will never become yellow? That is true. But at the same time, it will never become blue again either. It is a new shade entirely. Green. There are things that if you allow your shell to marinate in, it will affect your spirit. Which in the end, goes with the buddhist belief in "Right association". If you put yourself in negative situations, you can become a little more negative at heart. If you hang around those who drink or does drugs, you will become that much more closer to becoming a drunkard or junkie.
Anyway, that is all for now. I declare myself christian, but I am still open to other things b/c christianity is not pure anymore, and noone knows its absolute derivative.
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I'm BACK!!!
YAY!!!For the cyber dust bunnies who didn't know, i was on punishment for 14 days from the computer for breaking house rules and making a myspace page, but because of house service, i got off early. YAY!!!In a way, i am kinda glad that i was punished. It gave me some time to reevaluate some nouns (minus "place").Before i was punished, i felt pissed, betrayed and confused. Actually, i still feel a bit confused on some things but at least i don't feel as tired from suppressing violent urges
Anyway, i'm asking all of my friends 4 3 reasons y i should remain in contact/friends with them. I already called and asked 1. She gave pretty good reasons. I called another, but he didn't pick up. I was going to ask him the same question, but oh well. I'll ask later.
I have came to the conclusion that noone is going to willingly read my journals. Even if someone does, i really don't care too much.As i meantioned before i have been on punishment for about two weeks, but the original punishment was 2 weeks off the telephone, and one month off the computer. I cut the telphone punishment to 10 days by feeding my pets for about....a week or less. I cut my computer punishment down to only 14 days by feeding the animals and cleaning for 4 days. The point is, i did alot...
Whenever i am concentrated on working on something like cleaning i tend to think.
I am graduating this year on the 9th of June. I am supposed to be enjoying my last few weeks here, and had every intentions of doing so...until 4/12/08 which is dead news so i won't get into what happened.
All of my friends have had some pretty impacting things, aka drama, happen ever since i transferred to this school. I have always tried to be the optimistic one, the one they can count on for support that is not offered by their other peers. I even had the resolve to continue this role after highschool. I didn't mind suffering, and still don't mind to a certain degree, if that means that the few "friends" that i have will be happy. For some, i would even take a bullet....
The problem is that i am suppressing my own problems, and the were swelling up in me to the point where it busted thus resulting in tears every night at 3:00 am from april 12th till april 16th (when i had an epiphany). From that point until just recently, i isolated myself from everyone.
After this whole saga, i have finally came to the conclusion that there are actually pple who don't deserve my company...I'm trying to filter those ppl out of my life. Period. I don't want associates that break their promises or can't keep their words, i don't want hypocrites either. I have also realized that i have to be a little more careful who i trust. There are ppl who i know can't keep a secret, but i divulge to them HOPING they are trustworthy.....
Most importantly, i learned the importance of keeping positive hopes. Yes there is a difference between a positive hope and an negative hope. Here is a nice little example: 1. I hope that mankind realizes their mistakes and corrects them before it is too late. (positive) 2. Whenever the world burns up from global warming and then floods, hope that the survivers learn their lesson and prevent catastrophies like this from happening again.(negative)Basically, live hoping that tomorrow will be better, rather than too readily accepting the negative.
Something else i learned: Don't allow yourself to get too close to ANYONE!!!
Yeah, sure that appears to be an oxymoron compared to what i have typed, but it is also a nice little paradox.
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