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11.9.10 - 4:41 PM
Truth and Trust
A lot has been going on as of late.
I made it into our college Student Government Association. I cant wait to get started with changing everything!
I am working on a painting for class. I also am working on two music pieces for my guitar.
I had a semi metaphysical theological something or another with my brother about 3 or 4 days ago. He was asking how anyone can say that an internal truth is false when you arent the person with the internal truth. "Lets say Brianka drinks the soda, and to her it tastes sweet. To mom it tastes sour. To dad, it tastes bitter. Noone is wrong, and noone can dispute the truth". I replied "Actually, there is truth in all three experiences: The Soda itself. Truth is something applicable to all situations"
We had a tree in our backyard, and dad an mom insisted that it be cut down, because it was too close to the house. My fear was that it would fall onto the house, crash into my room and all, seeing as how the tree is precisely inline with my room and the washroom.
Mom and Dad finally managed to find someone to get the job done: Our neighbor. Apparently, dad asked, and they were about to cut the tree down. However, our neighbor's saw would not work.
When I heard this from mom, I felt emphatically and strongly in my inner being that they should abort the project and ask a professional to get the job done. I also told her about my fear that it would crash into my room. She replied "Stop being so negative." I spoke louder "MOM I'M SERIOUS! Find someone else more responsible and professional to do this!" What was worst was that I was bound to my room, because it NEEDED DIRE cleaning, so my own safety was my concern as well. They were STILL going to go through with the plans. I proceeded in moving all of the precious items out of my room and into the living room: My laptop, my painting, and my camera.
I was then thinking to myself 'You know, the Father would protect me, he could use his hand to block the tree from hitting my room....But I'd be risking and hoping for too much to expect this...ugh, what a mess'. Mom said that they decided to give up. I was elated, and continued to vacuum my room with peace of mind.
All of a sudden, my room shakes and I hear a crash. I am not talking bout just a small tremor. IT SHOOK. I went out of my room to see what happened. Well, they finally got the saw working, and they went through witht he plans; HOWEVER! Though it missed the house, it hit and crashed the porch.
Mom is devestated, upset now that they could not go through the backdoor (which is actually the side door of our house) to get to the back yard. Well, we probably could, just not safely. Its pretty jacked up...I took pictures for proof and a reminder of what happened today. The tree JUST BARELY, I'm talking BARELY, hit the house...
I said "Mom, I hate to say this, but I told you so. You had warning."
Mom said "I know, Brianka, I know"
Jonathan, our neighbor, and Dad said "Thank God it did not hit the house".
So, I went to my room, fairly irritated that everytime I give people warnings, they never take heed. And then I realized this is one of those moments were we all are supposed to learn something from this.
I felt the rumble of the tree falling. My brother, and Dad, saw the tree falling (and caused it to fall). Mom also felt the tree falling, and it is displeased because of the cosmetic and functional change of the backyard. The only thing in common in all of this was the tree itself. Which reminded me of the arguement I had with Jonathan a while back.
In my case, I realized and learned just how reliable God is. I truly expected the worst to happen to me, to occur. I didnt Trust God to actually protect me through life, because many people in the past had let me down. The lesson I was supposed to learn, was to Trust God. Truly Trust him. This week, He has proven himself in so many ways, and I still doubt. I see now just how silly it is, but I also see just how far I have to go.
In mom's/dad's case, She should have learned to trust me when I tell her these things. There were many times in the past when I told here something bad was about to happen, but she did not take heed and that caused the family problems. This situation, though thankfully by the grace of God noone got hurt, is no differnt.
My brother's lesson is similar to mine, as he does not really rely on God to protect. He is also, like I was, in the "Trust to a certain extent" in regards to God. This, if he observes this situation holistically, also refutes his own points he made during the arguement.
In the end, in this experience, we all learned something/should have learned something, and though it is presented differently, we all experience the same themed lesson: Trust.
Posted by Brianka
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